db (I) "Breaker Echo"
note: the difference btwn self & Other is a variance in desire. (1) what one lacks by one’s own perforated view of s. — a view perforated by s.-borne inadequacies & not by any objective rule — is ‘found’ in the O. & vice versa. if an objective ruling of s. is achievable w/out risking personal destruction, then the instance of s./O. collision may result in (2) a coöperative balancing. these ‘holes’ or instances of lack might then be addressed as neutrally occurrent variability, the s. or O.’s desire or lack-thereof something to be unified into a potentially more coherent fabric. a unified desiring-tendency for cohesion. though, not existing in a vacuum, adopted power structures often prevent this. in some instances (3) desire is entirely absent. the difference is cavernous. one’s view of s. is entirely obscured by a perception of lack—a type of desire we might call either (a) negative desire (there are only O.s) or (b) solipsism (there is only this s.). (1,2,3) in any case, they never touch.
Waves roil w/ crashing foam to carry you
from sand and sinking
and a want to rave, naked; and bleating “love”
to swim too far,
into me recalling
faint whispers of your haunting song's grave
melody, higher than
ocean crests. I gather my sails
to wrap you
in me, lost. “Fall kissed her down / her wanting
and gave her tides of
silken lust to bury us down deep.”
I want you simply whenever thought arrives,
just before it reaches the grass, the road.
This is, then, who we are: moulded when we
kissed there, sunset saved,
Braced for the tide coming
to carry you out and leave me here
and carry you here
and leave me out.
to swim, naked,
bleating 'love'; to swim
my sails wanting, breaking before
this is who we are:
sand braced for the tide
to carry you
out & leave me
here; to carry you
to leave me
“Breaker Echo”: written 2014, revised April 2015